20 September 2014

My Blogging Relationship.

My Blogging Relationship.
Lately I've being feeling pretty dejected when it comes to writing here across my humble little space on the internet. For the last two and a half years (oh how times flies) I have never felt this way before because blogging for me up until now has been something that I have quite literally fallen in love with. Starting my blog back in March 2012 I was still at university in my second year and never really anticipated just how much I would enjoy it and just how much of a role it would play in the next few years of my life. 

Over the last two years and more I have had some brilliant opportunities and have spoken to some seriously amazing ladies both in person and online. There truly are some incredible and inspiring blogs out there that I look up to, in particular those that are able to convey their thoughts in writing as before I started to tackle this post today I knew I would struggle. This won't be another post giving advice for fellow bloggers; I'm in no position to do so as I just don't feel comfortable in doing so. Readers of my blog will know that I very rarely write posts like this, in fact I can't even remember if I ever have.

For me blogging has changed considerably in such a short period of time however I guess that was only to be expected. The internet is an extremely fast paced place whereby new people are popping up left right and centre and of course where that materialises competition naturally occurs. Call it survival of the fittest, a natural instinct who knows however whilst I can accept that I think it's also so incredibly important that we all remember why we started off in the first place. I started off because I love make up, end of.

The blogging community in recent months has been a bit up and down whereby the negativity at times has greatly overshadowed the truly fantastic people that are present within the community. I think because of the sheer nature of blogging and social media words can be taken out of context much more easily therefore my general approach is think before you speak, or in this case type. Overall the community is fantastic, there is so much support out there and so many wonderful people to speak to; believe me when I say that I feel really lucky to have been a part of that for so long. 

Blogging for me is not my job, I make very little from my blog with just a few opportunities that arise every now and then therefore for me it has never been a case of wanting to make money, to receive products to review or to gain 'fame' within the blogging community. That will never be me. I'm the girl that shies away from so many opportunities in life because in all honesty I'm an incredibly shy and rather anxious person deep down. Some of you reading this may have met me before and may think that I do not come across that way (I hope), which I can assure you is some sort of front that I put up, fake confidence if it were. Deep down I'm just not that comfortable around people for some reason, especially new people. I guess before I start talking about that lonely issue I should save it for another post as I could end up being here all night.

At the moment my life is taking a bit of a turn as I'm heading back into education to peruse a career in law. Of course with making such decisions sacrifices have to be made whereby my blog is going to have to be one of them. Blogging for me at the moment takes up a lot of my time, especially as I'm also working a job completely unrelated to this. Since working more my blogging enjoyment has taken a nose dive and hasn't really surfaced properly since, it's sad but true and has made me question at times why I'm continuing. The course I'm starting will be incredibly rewarding in the long term yet it is going to mean a lot of hard work, that will and has to come first because after all my blog does not pay my bills.

Besides from changing my life in terms of a future career I've also grown up, my habits have changed and my interests have changed. As much as I enjoy writing about make up and skincare and of course buying new things I have now reached a point where I just can't do it any more, at least not as frequently anyway. Not least because of the financial strain of sacrificing work hours to start my course but also because more importantly it doesn't actually make me happy. It's exciting at first but then a few days later I question why I purchased that lipstick, I didn't need it and the money would certainly be better off in my account than the full to brim till at the latest make up counter. I do realise that I've made myself out to be some crazy spendaholic whereby trust me I'm not, I've cut back a lot despite my recent spend at Selfridges of which I will add it was the last of my birthday money from my family. You see even there in that very last sentence I feel as though I need to justify to you and indeed myself the reason for my purchase, I shouldn't feel that way. By no means is this a 'dig' at anybody as it is how I personally feel about my habits in the past. As a person I'm changing, I'll always love make up and you will continue to see make up on this blog for as long as I continue to write.

Overall I just feel a bit lost at the moment in where this space is heading. I would love nothing more than to write lifestyle posts such as this but I just don't think I have the nack to it. The last twelve months have been some of the best times for me and quite literally some of the worst, I've experienced great highs and incredible lows therefore I feel as though I have experience in some areas of life to talk to you guys yet I just don't think I can get it down on paper.

Has this blog post really conveyed my message as to why I feel dejected? I can't help but wonder if it really has, I've certainly gone off on a tangent more than once; no wonder my GCSE Literature teacher told me I waffled.

P.S The image above by the way was from a recent trip to my local AONB whereby standing under those trees was pretty magical I have to say, you should all try it! I recommend finding the tallest ones you can.
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  1. That is such a stunning photo Amy. I'm sorry you're feeling like this.. I genuinely love your blog and religiously read every single post. Your photos are always so beautiful, and you can tell how much time and effort you put into every post xxx

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  2. I can completely understand a lot of what you feel. Working towards a stable and rewarding career means sacrifice. Many of us who aren't self-employed just do not have time in our days to blog consistently, but I think people understand that. As an English Literature teacher, I enjoy your blog posts very much! Take care x

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  3. I totally hear you about the blogging community.. but I also think we are responsible for how we feel/react to it. I felt exactly the same a month or so ago and then I realised, if I remove myself from the negativity and don't get caught up in comparisons OR let other people judge me but their perceived notion of "success," then blogging is still as enjoyable as it used to me. I've moved away from beauty blogging and now I work on content that I truly adore.. and I no longer feel negative about how a lot of beauty bloggers behave (it still makes me sad though.)

    So I believe we are part of the problem if we only see the negative.

    I think you have to put your education and career first.. I'm sure a lot of people wouldn't like to see you stop blogging, myself included, but if it's not manageable then it has to be something that takes a back seat while you work on more important things.

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  4. Thank you Gemma, I love this photograph :)
    You're always so incredibly supportive of my blog, you have no idea how much it means to me. I'm not going to quit blogging I just need to change the way I address it I think xx

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  5. Yes I do think people understand, thank you so much for your supportive words there x

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  6. I completely agree with what you have said Sophie, it is up to ourselves to remove ourself from the situation. Beauty blogging is something I really do enjoy so I won't stop I just feel like I want to move in a slightly different direction all whilst not loosing that element. A lot of the behaviour I see makes me sad, a lot of it also seems to pay off too which makes me rather questionable of the whole thing but I won't go off on a rant, it's far too early on a Saturday morning!


    My education will be being put first, my blog will just fit around it somehow. I haven't quite got it figured out just yet but I managed it before, maybe I'm just stressing too much x

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  7. Fabulous post - you've summed up pretty much how I feel. It's becoming a rat race, and not one I wish to be part of most of the time. Never feel guilty for putting your life first! That is the most important things at the end the day. Blogging will always be there if you want to come back to it xx

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  8. I totally understand where you're coming from, and It's so refreshing to hear that I'm not the only one who has these kind of thoughts from time to time. It's incredibly unpredictable where blogging will take you in the future, so It can be difficult to have a sense of direction sometimes. I recently took a hard look at my blog and what content and what reasons I wanted to do it for, and I seem to have really got into my own little groove with it now, after feeling lost for a good few months. Hang in there gorgeous, because your space on the internet is one of my all time favourites. xx

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  9. Charlotte Greenhalgh20 September 2014 at 14:44

    This is a fantastic post, I know completely how you feel as I've had many of the same thoughts. I think it can be hard working / studying full time and finding the time to writ e posts and take photos - blogging can be very consuming and sometimes having a break can do the world of good. Hang in there sweetie though, as I adore your blog and love having a flick though :) xxx

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  10. I totally see where you're coming from, and im pleased to hear that I'm not the only one who thinks this from time to time x

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  11. Y'know it's really interesting this little community of beauty writers. I tell my friends, family and people I meet about blogging and beauty blogging in particular. Not a single one has heard of it and they don't really sound that interested in finding out more! There's a great big world out there with lots of things to do so open up your time and your resources to trying new things, following a career and devoting time to your friends and family. I don't know what this "behaviour" referred to is but it sounds childish to me - I don't care for those types of people and they are everywhere in every job, walk of life and community so it's just a case of shrugging it off and ignoring them. Karma will bite them in the ass at some point ;-)
    Blog if you want to, don't if you are enjoying your life too much. Outside of this bubble of blogging not that many people care that much what you do. That's nothing personal hun, they are just pursuing their own dreams, family life, hobbies and jobs.
    Big Picture xxx

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  12. What a sad post to read...but I hope you can continue to keep your blog on it's two feet! I struggle with my blog sometimes, but I try my best to continue and know the motivation will return. If you ever need a guest blogger, I'm here! I love your blog and just remember that your readers won't leave. You've got a base here and we all love you. Good luck! xxxxxxx

    Beauty
    Soup || UK Beauty Blog

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  13. danniella josephine20 September 2014 at 19:45

    I had no idea you felt like that. For me, you have come a long way - you have kind of grown up with your blog and I feel your blog reflects you and your personality well. It's well written, amazing photography yet it's understated and it doesn't need to be shouted about from the rooftops. Like other comments, we will all be here for you whether you decide you can only blog once a week or once a month (just don't leave us!). I think you could do lifestyle posts y'know, give it a go :)

    Danniella x
    www.famousinjapan.co.uk

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  14. Aw Amy, I hope you can still manage to blog because it's honestly such a joy to read and I have to stop myself commenting on every single post! If you ever need a hand with the odd guest post, then don't hesitate to ask. We all love reading A Little Boat Sailing and won't be stopping reading any time soon! Good luck with everything, you have everyone's full support :D
    Phoebe xxxxxx

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  15. Oh Amy, I am sorry you feel this way. I adore your blog and hope you continue to blog. But obviously you need to put you, your education and career first! I wish you the best of luck in that :)

    Sian | Siân Marie Beauty
    xo

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  16. Amy, I think you're awesome for being so honest and open in this post.


    I've felt like this - lost, negative, dejected, when it comes to the blogging world and what I learned is that I have to just forget everything else and ask myself - why do I blog? what do I want my blog to be? what is holding me back? This led to me changing up my content, refocusing my purpose, and not letting the things that hold me back get in the way.


    There's this big awesome blogging world out there and you get to do it on your own terms and however you want to - it's so important to remember that I think. And putting your own work and career and education first is awesome - but I am excited to see what the future has to bring for A Little Boat Sailing as I think you're awesome and I'm always an email away if you need to chat <3

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  17. A very touching and honest post amy. Loved reading your words. Its pretty normal to feel like this, and you should blog to make yourself happy. Do whatever makes you happy and dont worry about anything else :)


    Hope you feel great soon. Also, again.. all the best for going back to uni. I think its a great decision :) Learning never stops!


    xo
    Chaitra (PinkPot)

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  18. What a touching and honest post and I could relate to pretty much most of what you said.

    I think all bloggers no matter what they write about have felt like this once, maybe even multiple times. Earlier this year when I was poorly I wondered why I was blogging anymore due to the fact I wasn't gaining any followers, didn't exactly have people swarming to comment on posts and to be honest it's still the same old now.

    If it isn't that it's the whole "Why am I reviewing ANOTHER product?" and it feels like it's the same stuff all over again and it really does suck the fun out of blogging.

    At the end of the day you need to do what makes YOU happy and if that means you have to stop blogging for a while or for good then so be it.

    I hope you're alright sweet, keep your chin up. :)

    http://theremightbecoffee.wordpress.com/

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  19. Beautifully written post Amy - you didn't waffle at all! Sorry to hear you're feeling a little lost, I can definitely relate though. I think it's good to just take a step back from blogging and think about the type of posts you enjoy writing the most and what you want to get out of this. If your new job means having less time to blog, maybe cut back on the number of posts you write a week, you shouldn't feel under pressure to post. I feel like I'm starting to waffle now, basically what I want to say is just 'do you' - whatever makes YOU happy! Your blog is wonderful and one of my favourites and I'll still be around whether you continue as you are, cut back on your posts or change your content completely and I'm certain your other readers will be too. xxxxx

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  20. Thank you so much Rachel. It does feel like a rat race whereas it never did before, it's not a race I wish to be part of. It's not that I feel guilty it's more of the fact that I love my blog and feel sad that I'm going to have to put something else ahead of it if that makes sense. Hoping I find a good balance xx

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  21. Thank you so much Latasha, your words mean so much to me. I think at the moment this is what I need, a little time to sit back and re-focus on what I'm enjoying etc; doing so sounds like it did you really good! Thank you for your continued support :) xx

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  22. Thank you very much Charlee! It sure can be hard working, studying and also running a blog and it most certainly is time consuming however I love it and that's why I do it; I'm just quite torn at the moment I guess. Thank you so much for your kind words :) xx

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  23. It's nice to know others feel the same way too xx

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  24. I feel the same way Sarah, people ask me 'so what's beauty blogging?'. Whilst we are all caught up in it to many it is still a completely new thing. There sure is a great big world out there with each and everyone of us finding our own way. Blogging is something I enjoy immensely however it will have to be less of a focus for me for the next few months. I'll keep on doing it, I enjoy it too much to stop I just need to find a healthy balance for it with my law course. Thank you for sharing your thoughts Sarah :) xx

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  25. I think we all feel like this at some point, it's only natural. Thank you for your offer of guest posting Charlotte, I may take you up on that in the near future you never know :) Thank you so much for your kind words xx

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  26. Ahh thank you so much you little star! I'm not going anywhere don't worry :)
    Thank you for such lovely words, you've always been so supportive of my little space here :) xx

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  27. Comment away Phoebe, I love reading your comments! Thank you so much for your support and offer of a guest post, it means a lot to me :) xx

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  28. Thank you so much Sian! I'll definitely be putting my education first but do hope to continue posting here regularly, I enjoy it too much not to :) xx

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  29. Jenny, thank you so much for popping along and leaving me this comment. It means so much to me. I have being having a good old re-think where this blog is concerned, long before I published this post. I'm still in the process of deciding where it is going yet I guess that will just come naturally over time; I'm trying not to force anything as it will just make me miserable.


    Once again I thank you SO much for your support xx

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  30. Thank you Chaitra, you're right there learning never stops whether it's in the lecture theatre or simply in life in general xx

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  31. Thank you so much Nat! Yes I know what you mean, reviewing products over time can become a little tiresome. That makes me feel bad by saying that as I feel so honoured to have the opportunities that I do and I appreciate them more than anything however I think I have reached the point where I can't do them as frequently as I had been; I want to switch it up a bit more.


    I won't stop blogging I just need to come at it with a different angle xx

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  32. A step back is what I need I think, even if it's just for a week or so as I do feel as though blogging has quite literally taken over my life. I spend SO much time on it aside from working that I find myself sacrificing things in order to work on my blog which isn't healthy, not to me anyway.


    Thank you so much for your support Megan, you've always been so supportive and are one of my long term readers; thank you! xx

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  33. A very honest post and I can understand what you mean. I've recently been pretty uninspired blogging-wise and sometimes life can get in the way of actually enjoying my blogging hobby. I think most bloggers go through phases like this, so you are not alone. I do hope you will continue with your blog! Perhaps some "on a budget" type posts will become relevant and I would definitely encourage you to try out more lifestyle posts as you have a great writing style! xxx
    www.justemma.co.uk

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  34. I didn't read this post right away, and I'm sorry I didn't! There's only one comment possible: you have to do what you feel like a there's no point in doing something you don't "like", or feel. I love your blog a lot so I hope to be able to keep reading your thoughts for the longest time, but you have to do the best for you! Even a couple of posts a week, sharing other than only beauty, would be great... And good luck with everything! ;) xx

    Gyudy's Notes Of Beauty

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  35. Thank you so much Emma, I'm sorry I'm late in replying back to you on this comment. Yes I'm feeling some budget posts actually, it'll be fun to have a mooch through my things as I have quite a few budget skincare products that are really good! I hope you're well :) xx

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  36. Gyudy your comments mean so much to me on here, you are one of my most frequent and you have no idea how much they mean to me. Thank you so so much and I will definitely be blogging just not as frequently each week, at least not until I get on top of my course anyway. Once again a huge thank you :) x

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  37. I'm so happy to hear that :) Unfortunately I'm pretty busy lately so I don't have time to read and comment as much as I'd like, but there are a few blogs I try to read and comment as I aways enjoy the posts so much and yours is one of them ;) So every comment is really written with all my heart :) xx

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  38. Thank you so so much! I'm so busy it's insane, I never did this much work on my undergrad course haha! I hope you have had a lovely weekend :) xx

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